Monday, October 13, 2008

trust issues [sigh]

Major decisions coming my way. Don't know what's going to happen. . .Like always, I'm trying to just give it to God and not worry. Like always, I find myself taking it back and worrying over it. I seriously need to just LET IT GO. I know God doesn't need my help. He can handle all things. . .so my little problems are no trouble for Him. He always has a plan. He always knows what's best. He can "fix" my worries and problems in ways I couldn't even think of. I need to step back and [gulp] give it to Him and [double gulp] NOT worry.

This seriously is a trust issue. It's as if I don't trust God to do all things and be all things in my life. I have to have control. That's wrong. I know it's wrong, and yet, I find myself doing it over and over and over. . .

Do other people have this same problem? How do you cope?


Steph at The Red Clay Diaries said...

My sis has this problem more than I do. She spends a lot of time reciting her own personal mantras. :) i.e. "God wants what's best for me." or "I can't possibly think I know better than God." She tends to come up with one based on her Bible reading and journaling about the problem. Then every time a worry comes up (and her worries are pretty all-consuming), she just keeps focused on the mantra instead. I have to say that in some ways, I don't really "get" this. For me, I can ask myself, "What's the worse thing that could happen?" That totally calms me. I used to advise my sis on that till she told me that when she asks herself that question, her imagination comes up with the craziest out-there scenario, causing her to worry more.

Anonymous said...

Hi Rachel,
WHERE THEIR IS FAITH, THEIR IS NO FEAR! If you TRUST your FAITH, that is the solution. Just remember, their is always someone out there worse off than you and be GRATEFUL.
Your Grateful friend, Lori

Jenn said...

I think you trust God, it just doesn't sound like you are patient enough to wait for him to take care of the things ahead. Breathe in, breathe out, and remind yourself that worry is just a waste of brain cells. I think it is okay to make a gameplan, just remember that ultimately God will get you where he wants you to be, and you just have to be smart enough to stay out of his way with your own plans so it doesn't take you any longer to get to where He is taking you than necessary.

There is a really good book called "The Gift of Fear." Personally, I think every woman and teenage girl should read it to learn how to listen to the legitimate fear response, but it was also valuable for me in learning how to recognize how silly worry is. It isn't a theology book, and yet when I was done reading it I really felt like God doesn't want us to waste our time worrying because he gave us the fear instinct to let us know when we are genuinely in trouble.

Sometimes when I want to ignore the message "trust me", I replace it with the message "get over yourself" and sort of picture God rolling his eyes at me and my ridiculous ways. It tends to bring me back to reality pretty quickly. :0)

Erica said...

I'm a worry-er. Wish I wasn't, but I am. I have gotten so much better though. Take one day at a time. What I always tell myself is that God knew I would face this decision/situation since the beginning of time. He already knows how it's going to work out. So, why not get out of His way and let Him work this out for me. :-)